RAHHHH

TW: Horror, ¢h1łd @bu¢3, sweat shops, psych horror, mistreatment, v1°l3n+ video game, bl°°d mention, d3@+h mention


────── ⋆⋅꒰ა☆໒꒱⋅⋆ ──────


nothing new today really, half way into making my maskkk
i hate yandev, i completely understand why michaela laws left, but she will always be my yanchan.
the new yanchan is neat, she sounds really nice, but it’s not THE yanchan, yk?
amai’s voice is absolutely adorable wtf, she’s so sweet but holy shit she was so selfish when it came to taro, goddamn
“i saw you crine over your dead bsf that you loved and cherished since you were like 2, bc you saw lying on the floor bloody and dead with multiple stab wounds to the chest, and i wish you would care abt me like i was also your dead bsf that you watched die :( anyways, you should be my bf, i’ll bake you more food!” girl... imma slime you out mama😭

i miss my wife. amethyst is my whole entire life, i miss her so much

OOOO i went to a different thrift spot today and i got a skirt and 2 scarves for only $8! 
i love thrifting, like yes give me your garbage for cheap, help reduce textile waste/pollution and give someone something they’ll love!

i found the CUTEST lamp, it was bedtime bear sitting on a cloud, i was  sad to lose it lol, didn’t have the money and it was $8 - just looked it up, some people was $40 for it - apparently it’s a rareee

i want it so badly ToT

my fucking mask for the faire won’t dry as fast as i want it to, so i’m adding like 5 coats of glue hoping it’ll make the surface hard enough

i made little hot glue mushroom platforms for trinket trading, i’m gonna paint them in the morning
i can’t get over how much i miss ame(amethyst), i can’t hang out with her tmr, my heart hurts so fucking badly

anyways, i accidentally traumatized tf out of myself with internet horrors - the radio lady in the vietnam war trying to dehumanize, demoralize, and deter the american soldiers
scary shit, idk why it effects me so much

also the clothing tag from some fashion brand (it wasn’t shien, that tag came out before shien was really around) saying “i have dental pain”

i feel so bad for that person, it hurts my heart and makes me wanna throw up/gen
pain is awful, makes someone miserable, having no one care to the point where you have to put it in your clothing tags as a secret is so fucking heartbreaking/srs

the worst part about it is knowing you can’t do anything about it but boycott.
like, what do you mean i have to just stand and watch you work your ass off in a sweatshop with no pay? the only way i can help is to not pay your boss, not buy from your boss to lighten your work load, and just stand and watch you work - bc other people still pay your boss, and other people still make you work.
i’ll try my best to make your boss go bankrupt, but other than that, i just have to watch you work and then die.

it feels pathetic. makes me feel pathetic. i hate it.
i’m sorry/gen i wish i could do more.
i’m sorry i used to pay your boss to kill you for my own desires.
i’m sorry you’re not in school.
i’m sorry you’re miserable.
i’m sorry you’re dying.
i’m sorry that your teeth hurt.
i can’t do anything to help but watch,
please forgive me.

i think i’m gonna go to sleep now, i need to rest and process.

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